Thin Skinned

Ok, so I took a shot to the chin and went down like a sack of wet pasta. What is it that they say? If you can't take the heat stay out of the kitchen. If I can't take a negative comment then why don't I turn the comments off? If I only want people I know reading this blog, then why list it? If I'm embarrassed by my own descriptions of my life, then why use my real name? I've been reading postings on the internet for years now. I know that there is a zero tolerance policy towards showing weakness. In the anonymity of cyberspace civility takes a back seat. So what was I doing getting all bent out of shape because somebody called me boring?

Mostly I was getting bent out of shape because I am boring right now. Not only that, I've taken it upon myself to write about how boring I am. And usually I'm with you. I have little tolerance for anybody being boring in public. Even on cyberspace. Sometimes you have to beat against the wind. So, I'm doing it anyway. Cause I'm a rebel. I take chances. Because I know that first you've got to get boring. You've got to say "I'm as boring as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore."

All of my energies in my twenties went into a series of unrewarding careers, trying to make impermanent relationships permanent, and cheap (read expensive) thrills and escapist pursuits. Don't get me wrong I'm not knocking unrewarding careers, bewildering relationships and escapist pursuits. Those are the activities that make up life. They are not boring. They are where stories come from. Drama and soap opera, soap opera and avocation and so on and so on. Listen I just need a break to think. And I want to know what other people were thinking about when they took a break to think. This blog is a record of what I'm learning, who I'm listening to and how they are affecting me. I'm learning how to read and how to write all over again. Well here I am: childish, introspective and boring. Hey. That's got a nice ring to it: Childish, Introspective and Boring. I may change the name of the blog. At least then I won't keep getting accused of false advertising.